So Thankful

A lot of people complain about their in laws...MILs get a bad wrap specifically; however, I cannot say enough about how blessed I feel to have the mother in law that I do. I don't tell her probably enough, but she has been such a help to us since I found out I was pregnant this time. I have had a tough time with keeping up with the house- in large part because the lovenox makes me incredibly short of breath and sick to my stomach from even the most basic physical activity. I feel terrible and worry that people think I am just lazy because I can't seem to keep up with the laundry and floors. I guess I am just used to having my house look a certain way.

Anyway, MIL had been coming over about once a week to clean the house for me while I am at work. In the past, this probably would have bothered me a ton because I am a prideful person who would totally feel awkward having someone see my house messy, but I have long since gotten over that. I am so grateful and so blessed to have someone so selfless and willing to help out like that. I came home last night to clean floors and a spotless fridge. How fantastic is that?!

In other news, we had our OB appt tonight. Baby is still there! My OB said the HB was registering on the doppler at 163. He made some joke about it being a girl, and I told DH his family was going to be very disappointed in him if that were the case since they all swear that they only make boys, ha.

NT scan and first peri appt is scheduled for next Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving. If all goes well, we will probably feel comfortable enough to announce to our extended family on Thanksgiving... although, I am pretty sure most of them know because NO ONE in my family keeps a secret. They're all really good about acting like they dont know, but I know they do because my aunt always asks how "I'm feeling..." when I talk to her, lol.

I bought the shirt below for Cody when we found out we were expecting our first baby back in January. Sadly, he's never really been able to wear it, and it's been stuffed in a bottom drawer for so many months... but, I think it might be safe for him to pull it out. In fact, I told him that, assuming all goes well at the NT scan next week, he should wear it over to my aunt and uncles to make our announcement official. I'm excited. :)

I think we're having a baby!

So I don't think I wrote about this, but I had a minor hissy fit when the front desk lady called to confirm my appt  with my new OB. She said the u/s tech would not be there during my evening appt because she leaves at 3:30pm everyday so I wouldnt be getting an u/s. Of course, this caused me to have a little bit of a panic attack because I have become so spoiled to my weekly u/s appts with the RE. Internally, I felt like such a little diva, and wanted to scream through the phone... "Don't you know my loss history! The RE sent over my records! I am VIP!" ::cue stomping of feet and tears!::

Anyway, the first thing the OB said when he walked in the room to meet me was that he had just popped in to the u/s room to "fire up the machine" since he had reviewed my history and knew I was probably wanting one, lol. I think I made mooney eyes at him from that point on. He was extremely attentive and spent over an hour with us (I was shocked!). We talked about my history, and he also told me about his sister who has four children but has had 13 losses (um, wow). So, I feel like he totally "got me".

He was glad to see I was already on lovenox thanks to the RE, and is sending me to the peri next week. He used the doppler to show us that we could find the HB with that and it would be the same as seeing it on the u/s before we also had the u/s, and he told me I can come back as often as I want for a doppler check until I start to feel more comfortable... which I told him would probably be once I can start feeling movement.
He didnt really like the idea of me trying to use a home doppler bc he thinks it will just stress me out trying to find the HB so he would prefer me to come in when I want some peace of mind.

The u/s was awesome and we got to see baby wiggling all around again. I was amazed at how much growth there was between my last u/s at 9w5d and yesterday at 10w4d.

After the appt, we headed to the Melting Pot to celebrate a healthy, wiggly baby and Cody's 29th birthday! Poor guy had to let me choose the place bc I said "THE BABY REALLY WANTS FONDUE!"

Overall, I am really happy with how things went and am so excited to say that I am more pregnant than I have ever been today. I think I am having a baby!

He is My Greatest Blessing

Today is my husband's birthday. I often say to him, "You are my greatest blessing." It's true. I believe that my greatest blessing from God has been my marriage. We are not perfect... not by a long shot, but I recognize what a true treasure he is in my life.

This year has been one of great trials for us. Not only because of our losses, but also the loss of my husband's best friend, we've had to leave their shared business, we've been faced with a lawsuit... it has been a lot. Any of these things individually can cause strain on any sort of relationship, but the one thing that has remained solid throughout this tumultuous year has been my relationship with him

My husband is a man of integrity, of patience, and of kindness. I truly believe he is a better person than I am, and I often look to him as a model of how to treat others, and he will make a wonderful father to our children one day. He truly is my greatest blessing.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

Fingers and toes!

Our appt with the RE went great this past Thursday. Baby had a HB of 173 at 9w5d, and we officially were released to our new OB. We have our first appt this Wednesday at 10w4d which will be my loss milestone from our first miscarriage.

I think I am actually getting a little excited. I told DH that I just realized that I might actually be having a baby! A real little baby!

It was so cool seeing the baby on the ultrasound this week bc you could really start to see the definition of his little arms and legs... even some fingers and toes! He was wiggling and stretching his legs which was just so adorable to see! I am in love <3.